I’ve been in a rather intense period of my life over the past year or so. It’s the kind of intensity I associate with parenting young children – the constant, low level, you-never-know-what’s-going-to-happen-next kind of experience, though my boys are now both teens. My husband has been struggling with his health and so has my oldest son. It doesn’t have the same physical challenge as chasing a toddler, and I do get to take a shower and go to the bathroom by myself, but truthfully it’s been a lot. There have been lots of doctor visits and ER trips, along with many late nights when someone wasn’t doing well or just trying to catch up on my work. Or maybe I was up late because someone needed to clean the kitchen and that’s when I had time to do it. And I’m tired.
September has always been a time of introspection for me.
Historically I’ve done a lot to take care of myself during this month, so guess what’s showing up in my “On this Day” on Facebook? That’s right. All of my posts about taking care of myself. The universe is gently reminding me that it’s what is needed right now.
Since I realized that I’m not doing such a great job of taking care of myself, I started compiling resources and inspiration and changing my way of thinking about what that means. I don’t have a lot of “extra” time. I’m my family’s primary income. We’re getting ready to move (again). I’m homeschooling my youngest as he starts high school. My people need to eat and the house needs to be cleaned (sometimes). Even when other people take on these tasks, there’s still that mental load associated with tracking it all. I’m working two jobs and supporting my clients who often have really big things happening in their lives or they wouldn’t be seeing me, which is work I love, yet it requires a lot of me.
So what about me? How do I plug myself in and recharge so that I have something to give?
I realized that I pretty much suck at it right now.
I was talking to a colleague who is modeling great self-care practices and I felt really inspired to step up my game. My self-care looks totally different from hers because her life circumstances are very different from mine, but it was the gentle reminder that there are things I CAN do, and that every little thing I shift will help. I can’t dedicate 2 hours per day to just self-care at this point in time, but I can find what is possible in my world right now.
What about you?
Are you finding ways to recharge your batteries?
What does it look like in your real life?